New Year means we could just leave the previous faltering year behind and start anew. I'm leaving it dragging my foot because I realized it's been a pretty good year for me after doing a mental review of all the big moments that deserve to be put into writing, if not remember.
If the Mayan calendar advised us that the world would end on December 2012, I might suggest it to happen on 2013 instead because the last days of it has given me so much to ponder. However, without completely saying goodbye to it, I embraced 2014 wholeheartedly and if the expression "this is my day" can be compared to the figures of a year, then I might as well claim that 2014 is my year.
I dared, for all my life's newest adventures, I just dared. I went places, I ran the extra miles, I pleased myself in all aspects - spiritual, physical and emotional. When it's always best to use my head instead of my heart, I did the opposite - I loved people who love me, I worked as if I won't be able to the next day, I bought things I am convinced I will be happy to have and for the most part, I procrastinated, doubted and regretted. Yet the better version of me this time is that I don't take shitty things overnight anymore. The moment I wake up, I don't bother over yesterday's mess because I have learned that we don't fret on the past just because. Period.
And damn, I've never been this happy.
One of the gifts I received last Christmas was a rosary. I started the year praying it every travel time on my way to work and I depended on it like the weight of my sins would be based on whether I prayed it right without missing a Hail Mary or without falling asleep. I would like to believe that it took all the decisions I made into care and I acknowledge that all my victories happened because of that one, single deed of prayer everyday. I can witness that if you begin your day with that, you can face and challenge life as crazy as what it decides to throw at you, at any cost.
I remember I sleep at night with the thought that I want to wake up early if life decides to surprise me big time. Maybe if you become passionate about living, the anticipation of facing another day would come out naturally. You will love every waking hours and will be saddened about sunsets. In the year that has passed, I've discovered that the easiest way to live is to get out of your usual delivery of things and put yourself on another person's perspective and it's only then that you will see how I knowingly pronounce how to live life to the fullest, with the head of a king but with a heart of a queen.
The dreams on my list were one by one slashed off and if I were to list unnecessary people that need to be erased in my life too, I would have wasted a paper to write them on in the first place. I use a simple equation of do more of what makes you happy, anything that doesn't, you eliminate - may it be people or possessions.
So wake up with a high spirit today without leaving the past year at all. We don't really unlove things and people just like we can't undo our wrongdoings, bad decisions and stupidity. Don't rely much on the articles of Huffington Post or Thought Catalog or Elite Daily because we may breath the same air but we certainly don't have the same life. Remember that life doesn't have a manual and you just figure things out yourself.
This write-up doesn't intend to teach you about life but perhaps make you believe that everything matters from this sentence on because you'll reflect now on what to do next, to the point of thanking me.
This write-up doesn't intend to teach you about life but perhaps make you believe that everything matters from this sentence on because you'll reflect now on what to do next, to the point of thanking me.
Go ahead.
